...누구인지를규정하는것도완벽히확인할수없고

그주체를인정하는것도확실하지않게만들며

실체규명은불안한실체를만들어내고

나나상대방에게도확실한이야기로보여낼수없는불성실의자각이

죄의원형으로그불안을밀집시키며

폭발하기전에융합으로새로운시간속여행으로그실체의문제를이원화시킨다

불안한현실은그림자의유령을자기가면의실체로우리의잔치를실감내게만든다

연출은그속셈을삼가하게만드는현실의자리를환상의절규로상상케만든다

알수없는현실이허상의실체와실제의실체를경험으로삶의그물속에서자기의형체를구분짓게만들고

진실한사랑의본질을형식의분절로요구하며스스로그자신에게용기로속삭이게하고알아차리게한다

이전의과정은세상의절차를요구받게하며한번뒤틀린나의참여는꼬인감정의나락을주서먹기에는

스스로를힘들게하며역겹게한다

알수없는미지의굴절된현실은

그현실을배반시킬운명의가면을그누구는모두는쓰며

그시간의관문을자기사랑의확인으로어느누구의진실을기다리며

모두의발호가일치하지않음을선과악의신호로나타내게하고

패잔병의그늘이승리자의환호와연결짓게만들며

진실한사랑은거짓의사랑을증명시키고

누구는나를증명시키려시비의갈취를자진해서나오게만들며

영웅은패악의현실을증명하고

만취자는이세상에서신의자취를기억하게만든다

요동은정지를알게해주며

평화는파괴된섬으로나타나게해주고

한여인의미모는아버지의그늘을환상의넋으로

자기현실의진실한미모를따라가게만든다

죄의원형인불안이세상과융합되며

누구의실체가가면속의환영속에서자기의본질로찾아나서게해주는주춧돌이될때

세상의가색은그경우를따져묻되그정도를하늘이정해놓은것으로그수명의시간을스스로가알게해주고

만사는죄의원형인불안으로융합된다

응겨진나의본색은

가면의환상음률을따라세상의본질을검토하고

진실한실체의영상을보게되며현실의운명을따라잡게해준다

이상한소리는알수없을때신비의가면을쓰게하며

진실은사악의길로다가가며자기사악의마술은신의소리를가지고오게만든다

환상은실체를견디지못하고부서지지만그현실은믿음을견고히만들고나를확인케해주며

현실이주는나의실체를

소명의음율로가다듬게하고추억을감동케한다

환상은이중창을요구하지만

두려움의실체는앞날의불학실성을불안의잠재된사고영역으로들이밀며

대상의실체를현실로분간하게하고

그냉정한자기질서는환상의길목에서이별을약속하게하며

아버지의환영을몰아내게된다

자기실체의대상을발견하며

그모험은실증을요구받게해주고또하나의일상을자기탑으로환상의무질서로지어낸다

죄의원형인불안이융합되어나오지못할때

발악은변명을짓고세상의무의마한결심만을유지토록하며

자기모순의씨앗은그나락을떨구며흘러가는시간속에서걱정을만들어낸다

죄의원형인불안이융합되어나올때

아버지의환상은산자의질서로추려지고

그대상의현실은나의사랑을확인하는질서의숙명으로누구나줄을세우게하며따라나서게만든다

산자의숙명이그현실을따라나설때일상의지루함은질서의파괴를합리화의공약으로나발을불게하지만

변명은자기쇠약을드리우며운명의현실을불안의환영으로그오묘한자기질서의명암을지니게만든다

이사실로부터벗어난자의숙명은

죄의원형이불안의심각속에서그만큼융합되며

phantom의현실이가면의현실로등장하게되고

거짓의장난은그용기의능력만큼이환상의현실을배반하지않게만든다

그녀는아버지의환영으로부터분리되며

자기의거짓질서를이현실에서발견하고해체의현실을자기자신의환영탈출로

이생애의진실을자기해체의원형에서

그현실을자기자신의선택된삶으로그대상을사랑하며집어삼키게된다

1911년에출간된가스통 르루의소설(Le Fantôme de l'Opéra; The Phantom of the Opera)은

우연의기교를환상의늪속에서보이며

그유행의명성을지속적으로유지하게한다

자기마음을결정지우게하는우중의비현실이변명을심하게병적으로자기삶을애워싸게만들고

그누가쳐다볼가짜환영을스스로가만들어보이며

그여인의변명은

침묵하는그녀와의극적인대조를보인다

그여인은자기삶의비극적요소를집어삼키지못하고

자기의비극만을지금연출하며세상의비극을물리치고있다고자신만만해해한다

그러나그녀는대조적으로그진실의향연을자기사명과함께자기진실의고향을이현실에다안착시키고

침묵의함정으로그가짜영혼들을농락하며길들이고있다

변명은나약한자인가짜나의사기술이며기만술이라고일침을놓는다

그여인에게더이상약해지지말라고당부한다

그아이의불행은당신의선택된성스러운자기질서속에있으며

그진실의고향길을당신의귀로길로여겨야할것이라고당부한다

세상의질서속에너무깊게개입하지말라고당부한다

그아이에게진실을보여주는엄마가되어주어야한다

생존을위한변명은누구의귀를영글게하지못한다

Learn to Be Lonely 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CnlQ8KA-kkU

Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again

[Christine]

You were once my one companion

You were all that mattered

You were once a friend and father

Then my world was shattered

Wishing you were somehow here again

Wishing you were somehow near

Sometimes it seemed,​

​if I just dreamed

[Stage Version:]

​if I'd just dream

Somehow you would be here  

Wishing I could hear your voice again

Knowing that I never would

Dreaming of you won't help me to do

All that you dreamed I could

Passing bells and sculpted angels

Cold and monumental

Seem for you the wrong companions

You were warm and gentle

Too many years

Fighting back tears

Why can't the past just die?

Wishing you were somehow here again

Knowing we must say goodbye

Try to forgive, teach me to live

Give me the strength to try

No more memories, no more silent tears

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74S7EMUAKFs&list=RDCnlQ8KA-kkU&index=2

Masquerade

Masquerade!

Paper faces on parade...

Masquerade!

Hide your face,so the world will never find you!

Masquerade!

Every face a different shade...

Masquerade!

Look around - there's another mask behind you!

Flash of mauve, Splash of puce, Fool and king, Ghoul and goose

Green and black, Queen and priest, Trace of rouge, Face of beast, Faces...

Take your turn, take a ride on the merry-go-round...

in an inhuman race...

Eye of gold, Thigh of blue, True is false, Who is who, Curl of lip,

Swirl of gown, Ace of hearts, Face of clown, Faces...

Drink it in, drink it up,till you've drowned in the light... in the sound...

But who can name the face...

Masquerade!

Grinning yellows, spinning reds, 

Masquerade!

Take your fill let the spectacle astound you!

Masquerade!

Burning glances, turning heads

Masquerade!

Stop and stare at the sea of smiles around you!

Masquerade!

Seething shadows,breathing lies...

Masquerade!

You can fool any friend who ever knew you!

Masquerade!

Leering satyrs, peering eyes

Masquerade!

Run and hide but a face will still pursue you!

What a night!, What a crowd!

Makes you glad!

Makes you proud! All the cre de la cr?e!

Watching us watching them!

And all our fears are in the past!

Six months...Of relief!,Of delight!...Of Elysian peace!

And we can breathe at last!

No more notes!, No more ghosts!, Here's a health!

Here's a toast: to a prosperous year!

To the new chandelier!

And may its splendour never fade!

Six months!, What a joy!, What a joy!

What a blessed release!

And what a masquerade!

Think of it! A secret engagement!

Look - your future bride!

Just think of it

But why is it secret?

What have we to hide?

When will that be?

It's an engagement,not a crime!

Christine,what are you afraid of?

Let's not argue...

Let's not argue...

Please pretend... you will understand in time

Masquerade!

Paper faces on parade...

Masquerade!

Hide your face, so the world will never find you!

Masquerade!

Every face a different shade

Masquerade!

Look around - there's another mask behind you!

Masquerade!

Burning glances, turning heads

Masquerade!

Stop and stare at the sea of smiles around you!

Masquerade!

Grinning yellows, spinning reds

Masquerade!

Take your fill - let the spectacle astound you!